I think at this point it is okay for me to feel a little overwhelmed. There is less than 3 months to go, and don't get me wrong I am excited but there are those days where I wonder if I should go or if I will be able to go.
I am slowly getting paper work together. At this moment I am getting together my VISA application, it's coming slowly. Then there is also the doctors appointments, those start tomorrow.
One of my biggest stresses at this point is getting my finance together. I have done some of the things I can do at this point. Given out letters, done a few different fundraising ideas (selling crafts I have made or friends of mine have made) and a garage sale with my grandparents. Then there are my great parents who are so supportive; they have done a bottle drive for me in Calgary, with out any of my help, they got $150 for me! How blessed am I!? Even with all these little things I am still stuck I have just made it to under $5000 that I need now, but it makes me wonder if I will actually make it.
When I first applied I thought "Its no big deal, only $5500 to raise, I can do that no problem!" I was so confident God would provide. And don't get me wrong I still believe he will provide I just seem stuck in a rut and I want to get out.
What I would consider my biggest struggle would be with my friends and family. Not that we are fighting by any means! I just mean I am going to miss them, so I am trying to soak up as much time with them as possible. Which is hard when your free time is the opposite of their free time. My friends here in Saskatoon are going to be really hard to say bye to. My reason for saying that is because I see most of the at least weekly if not daily (Tyla, Kaylee). It is going to be quite the adjustment being able to talk and joke with someone I know well and trust. Where once I am gone I am going to have to make new friends and learn to trust other people who I don't know. This is where I need God's strength. Just thinking about how I know I will feel in the next year makes me sad, which when I think about it just seems ridiculous!
I am going to miss my family too, I just don't see them everyday now so it will not be as hard at first. But there are things I am going to miss out on, birthdays, Christmas, family get togethers, planning of a major event ;) But I know it will all be worth it, the good and the bad.
To end on a better note, I was looking through my pictures today of when I went to South Africa in 2011 and it brought back some great memories! I am so looking forward to getting to hear them sing again! What beautiful voices they have!
Well until next time my challenge to you is to be the person to put a smile on someone's face!
